Last week I shared a thought about leaving the mountain. But can I tell you a secret?
That post was mostly for me.
I had an opportunity come up last week. An urging from God to move forward on the path He’s chosen.
And it terrified me.
Still does, if I’m honest.
Which is why this post is going to be a bit different from some of my other posts. Instead of trying to share a thought I had, I’m instead going to share a problem I have.
One I think you may have, too.
You see, when God called me on this path, I had a glamorous picture in my mind. Of spending my days pounding away at the keyboard. Having a copious amount to write. Finishing two books a year.
The reality has not been like that at all.
For one, I don’t have a copious amount of time to write. I have windows, some smaller than others. Because you know what? Sometimes life gets in the way. Other obligations. Technology issues that leave me wanting to pull my hair out.
And then there’s the dreaded writer’s block.
Second, there’s imposter syndrome. The constant plague of doubt that maybe I’m not where I’m supposed to be after all.
But in the past month as I polished my manuscript, I felt an urge to move forward. To leave my mountain, if you will.
And you know what? Part of me doesn’t want to go. I know what to expect here. I have things I can blame my failures on. But if I go forward…
I’ll be facing the unknown.
And the unknown is scary, isn’t it? No matter how many people share their publishing journey with me, I still feel uneasy because no one’s journey is exactly the same.
So I can’t help but wonder, what will mine be like?
The kicker is, though, that to find out, I have to keep moving forward.
I have to leave the mountain.
Am I the only one scared by that prospect? Something tells me I’m not. That maybe if you’re reading this, it scares you too when God calls you to move forward.
So I just wanted to say that if you’re scared to leave the mountain, you’re not alone. That someone out there feels the same.
Maybe we can take that first step together.
I’m willing.
Are you?
